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Will you accept me? If I show you the real me?
No, not the me wrapped in pretty ribbons,
Meticulously layered in that vomit-inducing, festively designed wrapping paper you like so much
Those are the distractions I made for you
The real me, she's hidden in a deep dark place inside that carefully crafted box you see
And when she is no longer covered in all the pretend
There is nothing festive or pretty about her...
I never knew how easy it was to lock myself away forever with fear
Fear of rejection, pain, fear of the world beyond the make-shift walls I built myself
Not until reality showed me how disgusting people can be
The cruelty that was once myth, I now see, shining in the eyes of my closest friends
And it's staring me down, constantly
Every god damn day
Every god damn time I get too close!
Will you still love me? If I open myself up to you?
If I allow you to unravel that stupidly sarcastic ribbon?
If I don't stop you when you peel away strip after strip of that thin layer of paper?
When you see the hideous, brown, square safe-haven I've packed myself into
Would you have the courage...
And the strength...
To pull back the lid and get a birds-eye perspective
Into my cryptic cardboard chaos?
No,
I don't believe you would.
No, not the me wrapped in pretty ribbons,
Meticulously layered in that vomit-inducing, festively designed wrapping paper you like so much
Those are the distractions I made for you
The real me, she's hidden in a deep dark place inside that carefully crafted box you see
And when she is no longer covered in all the pretend
There is nothing festive or pretty about her...
I never knew how easy it was to lock myself away forever with fear
Fear of rejection, pain, fear of the world beyond the make-shift walls I built myself
Not until reality showed me how disgusting people can be
The cruelty that was once myth, I now see, shining in the eyes of my closest friends
And it's staring me down, constantly
Every god damn day
Every god damn time I get too close!
Will you still love me? If I open myself up to you?
If I allow you to unravel that stupidly sarcastic ribbon?
If I don't stop you when you peel away strip after strip of that thin layer of paper?
When you see the hideous, brown, square safe-haven I've packed myself into
Would you have the courage...
And the strength...
To pull back the lid and get a birds-eye perspective
Into my cryptic cardboard chaos?
No,
I don't believe you would.
Literature
Anxiety
There is a freight train inside my ribcage
And it pounds at the walls
Shredding my dignity to pieces
This anxiety is scratching the chalk boards
Peeling away at the rooftops
It never leaves me alone
I am left with spider webs on my tongue
One bullet for one mind
A one way ticket to the unknown
Tonight I pray to a God I do not believe in
For some type of relief
To help my soul from melting
Literature
social anxiety.
i'm sorry,
but we can't talk.
not now, not ever.
because i may say
something i'll
regret later.
because i may make
you feel very
uncomfortable.
because i may just
stop breathing for
the rest of the day.
because i may upset
you and you'll run
away forever.
i hope you understand
i'm only doing this
for your own good.
it's not really for me.
i can just feel it.
and it's not good.
my throat tenses up.
my head throbs around.
my fingertips stop feeling.
i'll stop wishing i were
here and start wishing
i were in the ground.
six and a half feet under
would be much better
than speaking out loud.
silence escapes my lips
as
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On the Borderline
I am a living breathing contradiction.
I hate you,
Don't leave me,
I need you,
Fuck off.
I don't know myself
Yet I hate myself.
I am empty
Yet I carry the sadness of every man woman and child on this earth.
I feel their suffering pulse through my brain
Yet my veins run cold,
Empty and alone.
Homeless and roaming
Owned only by my illness.
Hold me
Make me stop shaking
And aching for you
I told you to go
Now come the fuck back
Before I attack myself.
On the borderline between sanity and utter collapse.
Come back.
Please come back.
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The title is simple. I don't feel like being artsy and mysterious with it.
This is my first free verse poem ever. Or maybe not. Never mind. This is. And it's also about anxiety.
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Also, if you happened to like this box theme thingy-mah-bob, i have a traditional poem relating to it. It's about my experiences with being bullied because I was shy, intelligent, and too nice to people. (SHORT POEM) ;o
[link]
And here's a Traditional poem about conquering anxiety. Water themed, because I love the ocean.
[link]
This is also water themed and about anxiety.
[link]
Social Anxiety
[link]
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Depression, heartbreak, anxiety, mental illness in society
[link]
This is my first free verse poem ever. Or maybe not. Never mind. This is. And it's also about anxiety.
[link]
Also, if you happened to like this box theme thingy-mah-bob, i have a traditional poem relating to it. It's about my experiences with being bullied because I was shy, intelligent, and too nice to people. (SHORT POEM) ;o
[link]
And here's a Traditional poem about conquering anxiety. Water themed, because I love the ocean.
[link]
This is also water themed and about anxiety.
[link]
Social Anxiety
[link]
[link]
Depression, heartbreak, anxiety, mental illness in society
[link]
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Free verse can be such a blessing, I think it suits you. I have social anxiety disorder and depression too and I had to write a lot before I could get down to the root of how to explain my brain working differently to other peoples.. Its a struggle. Its a mess.
This poem is raw and emotional, and if you convey emotion in a poem it means you're doing something very powerful.
Listen to the Emeli Sande song Read All About It III.
This poem is raw and emotional, and if you convey emotion in a poem it means you're doing something very powerful.
Listen to the Emeli Sande song Read All About It III.